hears and here's my heart

A man's RIPbone

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 15:37:00 GMT

Woman can be a thing of delicate and at the same time complicate, in a simple yet complex manner. Very.

Woman tends to take things for granted, without conscious, conscience.

Hardly man and woman can see things in the same way.

And if they ever do, its out of love. So, one has to do compromise.

But when man compromised, no matter how considerate the woman is, she will still gradually get very nasty towards only to the man who loves her.

Then, that’s when the man will starts to think crazy. And when it bursts out of think, crazier things will happen. But still, the degree of craziness can never be compared with a woman’s. Because they tend to hold every little grudges within her tight clenched fist. Never will let an ounce of it off . Most murder case if you chanced upon, you’ll find that it derived from love-hatred and I think that’s why woman has always been a devil’s workshop. Im not a sexist. I still appreciate how exquisite woman is designed. But something said to me recently, I must be aware better already that Beelzebub always use anything made of woman to enter a man’s mind.

This is not a story about me or anymore but woman in general. And definitely not a discrimination of any way.I still love them the way they are. But with better precautions with actions and thoughts onwards.

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 18:39:14 GMT

hello darkness, my old friend, i've come to talk to you again.
becos a vision softly creeping, left its seeds and the vision that was planted in my mind, still remains.

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 05:44:56 GMT

See the light - it dont last forever.
It always got taken over by night.
Yet it still shines.
Seize the time - Its now or never.

meat is murder

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 07:17:08 GMT

i was quite alarmed by how my mind starts to react after some quotes i fed my eyes few days back.

yesterday i opened my disposable lunchbox packed by my friend and it was full of meats ( i dont know if its a goat's or a cow's)
i start to imagine like how the quote i have found, asked me to
"could you look an animal in the eyes and say to it , 'my appetite is more important than your suffering'?"   ( *by moby )
...and my mind starts to bring me somewhere, looking right into the eyes of a cow /goat/ chicken/ rabbit/ whatever laying on a piece of green, peacefully and then being snatched abruptly in the midst of its peace into the slaughterhouse. God knows what fear those poor creatures have to go through minutes before its death.
how come got blood?!! Why got sharp pain?!! Ahhh...!! Where's Mommy?!! How come i cant feel my limbs already?!!! VERY PAIN!! .
That's probably what i imagine one would say at the point of being slaughtered if it can speaks English.
How does it feel when its your life that is destined to be slayed like that. you will hope you can get help from somebody..anybody from anywhere. just help.

I came back from the visual wander and felt sick at the sight of my lunch. I kept imagining this was a piece of meat that come from some mammals i would have want to pat on, sayang on. And thus, tossed it to Dozer ( the resident cowardly bull dog ) instead. ( since it already had been killed ). It's time i think i should really consider being vegan. A semi one first la, which mean egg & fish allowed plus a very occasional meat . Of course my effort alone will not really contribute much help to those poor animals and I know my effort are just fair.   Well at least i will just do what i can.   Hence i wan to mark today as one of my turning point.

   Pig are very warm animal in fact and yet they are treated with no mercy.


www.goveg.com

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 06:04:28 GMT

Dear Kristyn Dior,

sorry i always used to bury you deep beneath the other people around me, for years & so but whenever i found you, you would always me me realised again how much you're a buddy i never thought i have. i aint going to do that same again. I have so much to grow with you. Thanks for the shining. The sky is not falling already.

Love.

i am no stranger to some but i am just a light.

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 06:20:56 GMT

i've got some sugar for your bowl, i've got some love for your soul
or maybe i just feel too young to be sitting around alone.
but dont go too fast i have got a time to catch up still.

Wed, 14 May 2008 06:49:08 GMT

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 06:51:27 GMT

it's been a long time since i'm here, again. i don't know how but it seems to be like that periodically. everytime i want to post an entry, i was stopped by factors i couldnt really put to words. Almost actual words will be flaws and void i couldnt heal or fill. because i want a beautiful life, a PERFECT life. whereby things will same go wrong, except lesser times. & any next entry i can put up isnt going to be one. but this time i decided im not going let it go over me.
when life seems black and white & that there's no one to brighten it up,
you just have to colour it yourself.

i really miss hug yet you just cant say by wrapping arms around yourself is a hug enough.

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 08:31:17 GMT

what's up with the people nowadays.
i am just being who i am.
and i dont need you to tell me what to do.
or what to say.
ITS NOT ME BEING FUCKED UP
ITS NOT ME BEING FUCKED UP
ITS NOT ME BEING FUCKED UP!

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 07:39:17 GMT

One I wish I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

before i start my singletonic post

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 03:24:24 GMT

But just let me have a look at it one more time ;

at how I remember every month would come a huge explosion
of grief and rage which made a hell of that r/s (provoked by
trivialities i couldnt foresee).

at how the exact minute after the appointed time to meet
that I've arrived late would get the rest of the day into a game
of furious sulk.

at how i wonder if Mcwings would taste better again if
comes one more who would practice extortion of the hind part
of the chicken wing the way u do.

at how i were made to drink more water, even if its one more
gulp that you would quit pesting so that i would live healthier
and die earlier than you.

at how we would rot and watch TV, never quite resisting
rolling on and off in between.

at how you would always kick me down the bed every after
night's last kiss, waking up hoping for what I think is your
mother's best recipe, calamari and chilli crab.

at so many other pieces of memory that scattered and i cant
say one another and just past it.

Even if comes somebody else to do the same thing
like how u do it, it wouldnt feel the same again.

she's not anyone.

morning call

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 01:21:05 GMT

what does future has for me will say 40% of it today.
or half an hour later, suddenly.

bb, be good.

i love kelly, i'd kill kelly

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 06:14:19 GMT

sanity gives way and worst of it all
why did not your eyes blink
every time you tell a lie now?
what we have left now?

sleeping wunderkids

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 02:23:30 GMT

I slept from
; 25/08/2007, 4 a.m - 7 a.m (in between time travel home)
; 25/08/2007, 9 a.m - 1.45 p.m (in between time working)
; 25/08/2007, 6.45 p.m - 26/08/2007, 4.30 a.m.

lst was more in a coma mode
; 25/08/2007, 9 a.m - 26/08/2007, 4.30 a.m (in between time to eat)
; 26/08/2007, 6.30 a.m - now.

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 03:14:18 GMT

at what price are you ready to pay ?
tell me so maybe i might change my mind
of build-and-launch this grenade.

case of the green-eyed monster

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 19:41:39 GMT

one of those puzzling days

nobody's here now.

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 17:19:33 GMT

there are so many places i've been where we havent been together when you're outside.
when you come out we'll go there together okay!

made of flesh

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 03:00:16 GMT

Monday
stomachache, scarediseased
fazed but all of that the point is not.
the point's that there aint no romance around here.
to home and slept and woke with a heavy heart,
feeling trashy.

three consecutive extended days

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 01:08:27 GMT

Friday

rino and i wasting space on ber's cell.

night came, we abandoned expensive zouk for foc club twenty-seven.

Saturday
velvet dragon with lst, ber, felix and lyna.

bumped onto xiaojason & co. and this was taken after he's gone.

ber issey lst

recovering from stings.

a certain romance

Sunday
never enough of stings. hence we picked up somemore.
on the way, we played jenga, card games, and mahjong.
our bets were fiona and ciggies but its a game of no-worry.
then, webcam-whorin'

played mahjong with sunglasses and headgears.

the whatever expressions adapted from Mr Sak at velvet dragon.

mdma night

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 07:27:58 GMT

Lst, Bernice, Lyn, Lina, Felix and I
had a euphoric night but it wasnt enough.
we wanted more. and it's just unbelievable that
when everyone has already open each own's satellite
in full power yet no reaching of any goodness.
gradually mild hangover came and i slept like log.
in 1st place.

morning call

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 19:43:08 GMT

(in britneyspears' Lucky tone)
early morning, he wakes up. guess who the people did he sees.

we wanted white chicks, unavailable. so we went to sky garden.

isnt it lovely, this contact cements.

chorus
and we say, we're so lucky, we're the stars.
and we get get get many free shoppings..ohhh
what we have for lunch this afternoon
it's finger-linkin good kentucky
remix~~~

the rest of the entry;
we went 7/10 of Orchard...
tanglin mall -> tanglin s.c -> orchard tower
palais renaissance -> far east s.c -> far east plaza
isseytan -> paragon -> lucky plaza.
in search for shop that buy/sell 2nd hand.
but all in vain coz its' national day.
how patriotic is our citizens.
*hard to tell, maybe because at least they have reason to rest.
and so,lst buy some pinofo (wrong spelling) at TF
then to topshop for some cupboard-food.
and bernice didnt did it quite right.
phew though, everything is fine but then to paragon we hide.
met up with the kawan-baiks.
(then onzhi and i went lucky for some arcade (sial~)
afterwhich, lstber & i had a lil supper over nydc.

end.

recall

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 20:39:11 GMT

31st of July, Tuesday
in btween, i slipped off at midnight for awhile to ttsh to find lst.
can u imagine how is it to handle with one family funeral and
a love's sudden admission to hospital due to kidney infection?
1st of Aug, Wednesday
the cremanium, granny will be resting her peace
at chua chu kang area. very grand place.
then have a little tiff with lst. (must have been her pms.)
2nd of Aug, Thursday
went home to change and head s'goon for another stayover.
3rd of Aug, Friday
morning macdonald at j8.
morning movie knocked up at j8.
a night of lstissey, charkenzo, onzhi at 'lil India
for dinner...

and some shopping.

lst bought issey
a similar wristwatch with hers, for him. =)
then off on derrick's car to Mount Faber for fresh air.

plus on to High Court for a 'lil gossip gathering
with the almost-complete couple'ration of the 184s.

tired and off.
4th of Aug, Friday
paragon on a pandemonium afterwork.
a hiatus-not picture taken. (i got stick out my tougue leh =[ )

over muslim or chinese funeral feudal.

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 06:24:24 GMT

she used to request me to massage, scratch her back.
she used to tell the greatest ghost stories of pontianak.
she used to cane me and my sister whenever we reached home after 7pm,
but still fed us with the most simple yet food of the warmest.
(yet still be willing to walk miles to buy food we want to eat, dismissing hers)
i know she didnt like me best but she still show equality of love.
though we've all grown up already long time ago, she still nag us much, over concern.
but the nagging will stop already.
because granny leave the world at approximate time of 1.30a.m
due to complication of new medications, at the grace age of 67.

i hope peace have already found you by now. I miss you.

dhperazine-nitrazepam night

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 00:11:20 GMT

start with jody caring for my appearance bring frames for me and i fucking drop my catier belt. anw...
big maasive players union resided cineleisure today.

headed boat quay. namely (argh) xiaodi, jonjon, zhi, onon, guanbeng, sebas, jiahow, rachel, chris, anlicious, nat, jody, lex and .....*memory lost* ok i rem got picture taken with chatre and cuiyu~ =)

long time no see!

long time no see ver 0.2 !

and i may be coming over, xiaodi !

then went home drenching in the rain with bb and lisa coming over with kelly and treasure hunt. fake lv, old model motorola and a brand new casio exilim!

p/s: i really hate kelly already.

bloody staircase

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 09:21:01 GMT

a ball with ball